Lt. Grayson Masters is focused on graduating the Apache helicopter course, and the last thing he needs is his gorgeous new roommate Samantha Fitzgerald distracting him. While her smart mouth and free spirit are irresistibly irritating, he can’t deny their off-the-charts chemistry, no matter how hard he tries.
Having just been expelled from college, Sam has no business digging for Grayson’s secrets while she’s hiding her own, but that doesn’t stop her from trying to tear down his walls. Each barrier she busts through drops one of her own, though, and she’s not prepared for the truth: another woman laid claim to Grayson’s heart long ago.
Falling in love is something neither Grayson nor Sam can afford, and when that line is crossed and secrets are exposed, they’ll learn that sometimes it’s the answered prayers that will put you through hell.
I received an ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review.
Anyone who has read a Rebecca Yarros book knows that she can write a swoonworthy guy. She writes amazing men who would do everything and anything for the women they love. For the women they cherish. For the women they want to spend the rest of the lives with. First we got Josh. Then Jagger. And now we have Grayson.
Grayson is the strong, silent type. We don't know much about him, but Rebecca gave us just enough of him in previous books to make me want to know more. We met Samantha in previous books (she was Ember's roommate). She is headstrong, determined and pretty awesome. I loved her. And I loved the two of them together.
I never once doubted their feelings for each other. It was clear that they belonged together, but the path their relationship took was an extremely bumpy one. I also knew that they would eventually work things out, but there was going to be a lot of drama. I have read plenty of books where I felt the drama was unnecessary, but with this one I felt the opposite. In order to be together, Grayson and Samantha had to go through the tough stuff. They had to face their secrets head on and overcome all the crap. There were plenty of moments when I thought everything was going to blow up in their faces, but I just told myself (I talked myself a lot while reading this book...) that they needed to live through whatever was happening to get to their happily ever after.
I just love this series and this book is now my favorite of the series. I don't really know how to explain it, but this book just felt different than the other two, but in the best way possible. I know that we are getting another Ember & Josh book and I can't wait to revisit them, the ones who started it all!
“Samantha?” His eyes softened, revealing the give in him, and it cracked my own defenses.
“Have you ever made a mistake, Grayson? And I don’t mean the kind that costs you an apology. I mean one that destroys you? Where you lie awake at night, unable to sleep, because you’re terrified of what’s going to happen the next day, and the one after that? Where you’d give anything, and I do mean anything to go back and make a different choice? Where you’re sick all the time at the thought of what you’ve done? Because I have. I’ve crumbled my entire future, shredded any hope of finishing college, and killed off who I used to be. And I don’t...I don’t know how to come back from something like that.”
“You don’t.” I jerked back, but he held me immobile against him. “Stop, and listen to me. I’m not going to belittle you by
saying nothing is that bad, because some things are. Things happen that change who we are, and what we’re capable of. So you’re not going to ‘come back’ from that any more than you’re going to erase whatever you did. You have to decide if you’re going to try to keep patching yourself up or if you’re going to tear down and rebuild.”
“I don’t know how to do that.”
“You wade through the pain, and the guilt, and the excuses you make to yourself. Stop drowning in alcohol to numb the fear, and suck up the bitter taste of accountability.
You move on with who you are now. It’s not easy. If you think you screwed up that badly, then maybe you did, but you also have to leave room for the chance that you didn’t. Have you talked about it?”
I shook my head. There were two of us who knew the whole truth, and that circle was big enough. “I’m not sure I’m ready to let go of everyone’s vision of who I am. It’s so much prettier than the truth.”
“Not even Ember?”
“Definitely not think-through-everything-twice Ember. She wouldn’t understand, and I’m not sure I could handle her reaction.”
He swallowed and broke our stare like it had become too much because we both knew the truth—it had. “That’s the hardest part, letting someone see who you really are— scars and all. I’m...” He cleared his throat. “You need to trust someone enough to tell them the truth. Make peace with it before it eats you alive. I listen really well if you don’t have anyone else.”
I scrambled to throw up a wall between us. It was safer when he was hurling snotty comments at me. That, I knew how to handle. But this Grayson? The one holding me carefully, keeping me warm while the storm raged outside, offering to help carry the crippling weight destroying me? I didn’t know what the hell to do with that one.
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